Monday, April 15, 2013

Monday, April 15, 2013; 2:52 A.M.

Can't sleep...I worry too much about trying to survive and about family and about what we need to be doing, and about....  and when I do sleep I have dreams about my children so I wake up bawling.  and if not about them, it's nightmares. 

Yesterday, Sunday, we went to the new church again - we really like the worship service.  Beautiful uplifting music instead of funeral dirges as was the case with our old church.  The new church, in the sanctuary service, does NOT have the modern music that goes on and on and on repeating over and over and over again.  SO GLAD.  Today the songs were wonderful.  The service opened with Sweet, Sweet Spirit, and then one was People Need the Lord, then a soprano soloist did a rendition of You Raise Me Up (which was not my favorite version but love the song), and then there was Because He Lives.  Oh, my gosh, cannot say how much I appreciated the music. 

And the sermon was wonderful, too.  Jim Conner, the pastor, does an awesome job as does the associate pastor - can't remember her name.  Ken really likes the sermons...and we both feel/know we've been to church afterward!

After church we went to Mexican Inn for lunch - I ate about half of mine.  I really felt horrible today.  I don't understand why I can feel so good one day and then wake up the next day feeling so awful.  But that's how it happens.  I meant to get all dolled up for church this morning but as it was all I could muster was black pants, decent top, comfortable shoes, and hair pulled back. 

I went to bed as soon as we got home from lunch.  I slept until after 4 p.m.  Ken had leftovers for dinner and I had a bowl of cereal.  Ken's been in bed for hours; I've not gone to bed...I hate closing my eyes because of the horrors that visit me in sleep.  Today I had a horrible dream during my nap.  It was about being in an area where my family lived during my teen years - and the area was ok when we lived there but has since gone horribly awful.  For some reason today I dreamed I had been in the neighborhood at some place for educational lessons of some sort but afterwards I had no way home and it wasn't long before dark. I walked to what was a main street in our neighborhood - where there were businesses, but I was not allowed in the store...I was out on a sidewalk with a lot of scary people.  I was using the pay phone to call Daddy who was on the other side of town...and he told me he couldn't come after me.  I was approached by a couple of evil looking guys but I told them to back way off from me.  And then I was hearing crying...couldn't figure out where it was coming from -- turns out it was my precious Luci who was napping with me - she wanted down off the bed to go find Kenneth!  Glad she woke me up - at least this time I didn't wake up screaming. 

In addition to the bag I finished for great niece Crystal this past week, on Sunday night I almost finished a pretty bag for myself.  My new bag is VERY long (about 20") and rather narrow - about 15" wide.  It has long straps.  It is made out of Asian inspired metallic fabric that I bought about 3 years ago -- beautiful.  The fabirc is brown background with aqual/turquoise flowers with gold metallic threads.  I lined the bag with a marbed aqua fabric.  I put a flap closure on my bag but haven't put on the snap or magnetic closing devise yet.  I made Crystal's bag out of the same fabrics - I made hers large because that is what she wanted.  It turned out really pretty.  Ken took it to the subcourthouse on Friday - he went to buy tags for the VW and my niece (not great niece and not great niece's mother) has an office there.  My niece lives closer to my great niece.  Anyway, as soon as Peggy saw the bag she sent a text and told me she thinks I can sell them!  And thankfully Crystal loves the bag.  I'm going to make up a few to see if they will sell -- if they don't, then someone will get them as gifts!

This is a picture of my niece's bag: 

wish the fabric showed up better - oh well, it is what it is



I really like the way this bag turned out.  I quilted this bag with long straigh-line quilting. 



Such a soft color.  goes so pretty with the exterior fabric

Maybe tomorrow I'll post a picture of the bag I made for myself.  Have no idea what I'm ever going to do with it but I really like it!  Eventually I may cut it off at the bottom and make it shorter.  Maybe not. 

what else...oh, Ken's eye doc appointment.  He got the shot in the eye and a prescrition for eye drops.  He has to go back for the next shot in the eye next Friday morning.  I'll go with him because it's tough driving home after that!  I remember it so well when I had to have it done. 

The next day Ken had to go have a blood test done.  He got the results on Friday - high white blood count, told to contact his primary care doc.  He tried, but it was Friday...they were not there.  The answering service would not ask the on-call doc to get back with Ken but instead told Ken to call our doctor on Monday!!!  Ken's blood sugar has been raging since the shot (steroids do that) and he has been dizzy and sick for the past 2-3 days.  Getting old and having issues is just not fun. 

Tomorrow (today!!) I am going to start working on a couple of bags out of Texas prints - I have a couple of packages of charm squares that are Texas fabrics.  I'm going to make one of them a rag bag - ragged edges - it should go pretty fast because I'll do all three layers at one time.  I'm going to do the second one in the same charm squares but not going to make it a rag bag.  I'm going to make flaps for both of them and probably pockets in each of them as well. 

That's it for now...I'm going to try to go to bed.  Have a great Monday.






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